You, who have lived on earth for me
I thank you.
Even though.
You could have been.
You might have had.
You should have done.
(You wanted to)
(You didn’t do)
Even though.
You didn’t even try.
I thank you.
Even though.
You never did your best
(not really)
to do anything any better.
I thank you.
Even though.
You lied.
And had no idea.
Had not a clue.
Could find no reason.
To tell the truth.
Even though.
You did not know
and did not care
enough to find out
I thank you
for all those times
you did not get picked
or couldn’t jump
in and take a chance,
or kept missing the boat or bus
(in fact missing the whole fucking point)
Or when you did not score the winning goal
did not smile the winning smile
did not kiss the girl
couldn’t run that extra mile to gain your hearts desire
I thank you
Even though
You couldn’t see the wood for the trees
couldn’t smell the coffee
couldn’t get your arse in gear
And didn’t sing your song
I thank you
Even though.
You had nothing to say
I thank you
Even though
You did not shine the shiniest
Did not sparkle, flare or flame
did not wish for the most
did not long to burn
did not make a mark
or leave a trace
And you,
You who have been home for my blurry eyes
The place for my luke warm heart
The river for my turgid blood
I thank you
I thank you
Even though
I could not stand you
Even though
You never made me happy
Even though
You wasted my time
And even though
You don’t deserve me
I thank you.
Even though
You are ridiculous and foolish
And never learnt a bloody thing
I thank you.
Because you suffered for me,
stood in for me.
And (for better or worse)
You took me on
For, to tell the truth,
without you,
(I know now)
I would never have lived
On earth at all.
